Song of my life!!!! :)

This music, when I listen to it with my eyes closed, I see flashes of the past , could feel the promises future holds , and eternal peace waiting to embrace me one day ...

:)

Love you Yanni ...!!!

Buffalo and me

Its wonderful at times to observe living, breathing creatures and think : How Am I different?
Sounds weird! But...have always wondered what really makes me different from a ...lets say ..a buffalo!!!
It breathes, so do I..
It eats , so do I
And i could add so much to this list that is tad too obvious !
Hmm..I have brains ..I can think, have finished my studies and can buy my daily meals!
It makes me any smarter than that Buffalo? Well i am writing this post and the buffalo cant! Lo! I just won a battle !
But level of sophistication I have over buffalo does not make me any different, just that it makes me feel superior.... Though I don't think it would affect that Buffalo in any way...
One thing I appreciate in buffalo, It acts on its instincts! It eats when it wants, sleeps when it wants, unaffected by wavering and futile emotions and does not write blogs!
Sometimes i feel being intelligent and being able to think is a burden!
A very bad argument! How the world would have been, devoid of all its wonders and glory mankind has created over generations using the fruits of pure sweat and labor,and genius unparalleled by majority of the other species...
I appreciate good food today, enjoy music and other creative arts, love indulging in discussions, ponder over the wisdom of sages and inclined towards spirituality and I can love!
I can see the beauty of this world ... Could buffalo too?
It does after all, gently handle the calves; bond with humans who treat it well, can express joy and sorrow and ...well..gives us milk ...(we take it actually)

And the next moment i can hate strongly the entity which might have had been my object of admiration for days!
Amazing!
I can suppress my instincts and act against my nature and will ...I do it most of the times and buffalo does not!
But isn't buffalo worst than a slave! Why does not it realize the fact that the day it turns unproductive, she would be nicely butchered and it has been happening since ages! Hasn't it learnt yet to be wary of human race and develop defense mechanisms! Why hasn't evolution yet taught the tame animals to resist us, the humans?
We are meant to rule ..right?
So i should be happy and should smirk at that buffalo!
Irrespective of all that, why is it that I look and buffalo and end up wondering ..."Lucky You! Lets swap places!"
:)
Not yet able to figure out why!
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To God :)

Want to talk to you, my unknown , silent companion,
for that would be you i will find my solace in,
For that would be you to whom i would confide in my deepest darkest secrets,
let go of my delicate desires,
feel free
happy and safe forever ...
When will you manifest thee
have survived through the gloomiest of dawns
sitting on the edge , could see the end is near
confront me and let me feel your warmth
let it last for a quanta , for that moment , would make this little life worthwhile
For my passion did not bear this request ..
Wish it could be ..beyond divinity

A Lovely, Lovely Blog (Must read)

http://www.peopleforanimalsindia.org/articles-by-maneka-gandhi.html

A prayer for lifetime :)

This prayer is ...just very close to my heart :) Makes me realize again and again life is not vengeful and a lot of love is in store :) :)

Today SomeOne I have been adoring since childhood, who is adored by millions alike , who has really helped my loved ones in impossible times (something people who can relate to can admire...) and helped me in my tough times too .....bid adieu to this world ..........

I wish that people remember and appreciate his good deeds and selfless,flawless helping attitude and the way he transformed the lives of many; but really sad by the fact that majority believes in digging up the dirt and scrutinizing dead / meaningless facts ......... Though it really doesn't matter to those who understand ..................

Tribute .......

http://www.sathyasai.org/

Had a new and different kind of experience .........
Spent night at YPR railway station ...
Thought that Indian Railway stations, as usual would be buzzing with activities and alive with colorful people colorful faces :-)
And my "generalization" usually sucks! ....The station was deserted after my mother's train left ..............
Wasnt allowed into the waiting room as I was not carrying a valid ticket ..platform ticket doesnt count I think .... The waiting room was empty though .... Guess the fear of getting told off by the higher authority took over the sensibility and humanity there ...
So spent the night sitting on stairs in front of the room for the sake of seeing a couple of faces inside and reassuring myself "all is well" ....
It rained entire night and I was not carrying warm clothes .........
Got a bit of idea as to how homeless people feel .........
Do they too feel dejected , helpless , lone and happiness sucked out leaving a larger bit of their soul dead .........
It is difficult to deal with the way life is dealing with you and your present conditions ..I really hail people who make the best out of it ....there are many examples ............. To keep yourself cheerful when everything seems dead against ..is the real spirituality and definitely that should be one of our end-goals .........
When a tragedy strikes a nation/city/a civilization...the line between "have-s" and "have-nots" is merged suddenly and it is really painful to imagine how would it feel when everything that made you happy and safe till date is taken/snatched away ...
And people deal with it and move on...Japan's recent tragedy is an example ..........
It is wonderful to be a "human being" and be able to feel and analyze, empathize and sympathize :) :)

The joy of being a foodie :)

Okay ... Sampled as much as i could from the "accessible" foodlets in bangalore , and shortlisted a few :

1. Maiyyas -- Jaynagar : Awesome breakfast and god's own coffee served hot in silver glasses!
2. Om Restaurant, Koramangla 8th block : Very homely food and an awesome place for veggies ...
3. Chaipatty Teafe, Indiranagar : Heaven for tea lovers :) :P
4. A tiny roadside shop selling hot pakodas and tea , E-City : This shop is quite near to Infy's bus stand in e-city phase-2 ...
5. Addict -- Koramangla : Loved their green tea with grapes and a wonderful range of juices and salads :)
6. Corner House -- Ice creams!!
7. Kalmane Koffees : Indian alternative to CCD, barista etc.
8. And yess countless Udupi restaurents selling hot teas and filter-kaapi in the rosy Bangalore morning weather :)

Guess I am loving Bangalore already!! :)

A Really Real nice scene ... and a wonderful performance

A complicated yet beautiful character, Travis ....
A Movie really close to my heart ...
Astonished to see the portrayal of emotional transformations character of Travis goes through .. Striving to make himself a "better" human being..not "conventionally" ..He does not want to be a "stereotyped" hero ..yet he wants to feel like "God" ... Having realized that a man is capable of performing tremendous feats attributed to a superhero or god eventually ... becomes aware of the "power" dormant within and how he could use it to transition the very society shaping him ... People who "bother" him yet they move on about their business unaware of his "tiny" existence..
It made me sad , makes me cry every time I watch it .. Somehow I could relate to travis and feel his pain .. :)

A Learning I acquired by Dealing with the worst human traits (in very recent times) (which I always dread) : Cowardice, Lies and Manipulative Behavior .....
It is good in a way that ..
I am discovering traces of these traits in myself :)
Trying to weed them out ... It is tough but ... Read this somewhere : Whatever good or bad you see in this world..Is an illusion and a bit of your own reflection.... :)
Trying to make my true self "Idempotent" (which is the most difficult task attempted till date ) ...

Another Blog post Yet ..........

Liked it ... Cherished it (Due to my likeness for Mansoor Khan ) .......

http://passionforcinema.com/gazab-ka-tha-din-socho-zara/

Courtesy : LOTR (Quoted verbatim)

"The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say. " :) :)

#Random

Sometimes It is soooooooo Liberating to Forgive!! :)
And it is equally distressing to be aware of the fact that someone has not forgiven yet!!

Nice Blog :)

http://davidmaister.com/blog/28/The-Brutal-Truth-About-Other-People

Dedicated to my Sweeeeetest Mother :)

I see in myself .....
A piece of your soul...
I am but a tiny reflection of you ...
:)
Yours was the prettiest face I saw when I could 'see' ..
And I will ever see :)
What is carried off is blurred and tainted ...
But it is but a little of me ...
What glimmers and glistens from beyond is something ...
I Have been seeing and adoring since ..
God put us together as 'we' :)
Just these 2 li'l eyes ..
Crave to see more and more of you..
Smiling from within..
And telling me always ..
Just keep me alive..
Don't let me fade away !
And this struggle tears me apart ...
I just pray ...
The reflection here goes off ...
Before the wick burns itself and dies!

Make solitude your best companion :)

Here Am I .. Going through an altogether different and kind of weird phase of life!! Spent 19 years staying with 6 people at home! And a lot of frequent functions... Numerous gatherings ... And then the hostel life.. again 6 people per room :) By the end of B.E. it came down to 3 though but still...In M.Tech we were allotted single rooms but who stays alone in the room when there is constant partying in the floor ;)
I never imagined that a girl brought up in a traditional joint family with a bro hanging around, cousins , constant fights and literally no privacy (who cares for privacy when there are so many people around who love you :) ) ... would be staying alone one day..cut off from the mayhem of city life ... having carved off a niche for herself in a solitary corner seldom visited by so called near and dear ones ...Of course going home frequently is not an option as it happens to take almost 48 hours worth of journey!
But life would have no meaning to it if we fail to confront the best and the worst in ourselves! And of course what we fear the most! There were times at home when despite of the company of 6 dear ones I had sleepless nights due to a very false sense of belief in the evil! And numerous insecurities! Read this line somewhere, written off by a great person .. "It is in the company of your so-called loved ones that you feel most lonely!" ....
When You are alone, you have a evergreen loving companion who exists within you, who is ever ready to listen to your thousands of silliest utterances .. :) Comfort you..convince you... criticize you.. keep you off from the path trodden by cowards and weaklings ... It is always good to listen to your inner mate!
He / She is one of those very precious ones who will never lose faith in you..And encourage you despite of your biggest failures ...
Being a girl (I guess its "Woman" now though i hate to accept the fact :( ) It is of course difficult! Constant vigilance and carefulness become your obsessive compulsions every single day! This is the tenure during which you can decide if what I used to think and believe in till this age was actually authentic or If it was a mere way of thinking! An Illusion! You can decide whether staying single ever is an option for you or you actually crave to be a part of conventional society!
You become very much true to yourself and decide the course of life! Right from everything be it your professional life..........
To kill "empty" thoughts which just keep you hanging between this earth and heaven ( :D ) ... It is always a good idea to engage in something creative and meaningful , be it learning a new language (I do not mean Java, C ;) ) .. Music .. Food (Of Course :) ) .. or any other creative hobby you always craved to pursue from childhood :) )
It really gives me pleasure to take my time off and have an ice-cream (with lots of chocolate, caramel and malt ) @Corner house, Bangalore .. Pay visit to Lord Ganesh temple nearby ... Groom myself !!! :) :)
Yes I guess I am loving this solitude and at the same time bidding my time... Really clueless what the future has in store for me ... But we have to believe that "Good things do happen" ..And maybe they are happening right now Just that We fail to acknowledge them :) :)

Do yourself a favor .......

Please Please Go Watch 'Tangled' :) :) :)

I fell in love with fairy tale endings again :) :)

A Beautiful Conversation (From the movie "V for Vendetta" )

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V: [V enters Evey's field of vision as she walks into the Shadow Gallery, directly from the prison] Hello, Evey.
Evey Hammond: You. It was you.
V: [quietly] Yeah.
Evey Hammond: [gestures behind her] That wasn't real... Is Gordon - ?
V: I'm sorry, but Mr. Deitrich's dead. I thought they'd arrest him, but when they found a Koran in his house, they had him executed.
Evey Hammond: [whispers] Oh God...
V: Fortunately, I got to you before they did.
Evey Hammond: You got to me? You did this to me? You cut my hair? You tortured me? You tortured me! Why?
V: You said you wanted to live without fear. I wish there'd been an easier way, but there wasn't.
[Evey whispers, "Oh my God...?]
V: I know you may never forgive me... but nor will you understand how hard it was for me to do what I did. Every day I saw in myself everything you see in me now. Every day I wanted to end it, but each time you refused to give in, I knew I couldn't.
Evey Hammond: You're *sick*! You're *evil*!
V: *You* could've ended it, Evey, you could've given in. But you didn't. Why?
Evey Hammond: Leave me alone! I *hate* you!
V: That's it! See, at first I thought it was hate, too. Hate was all I knew, it built my world, it imprisoned me, taught me how to eat, how to drink, how to breathe. I thought I'd die with all my hate in my veins. But then something happened. It happened to me... just as it happened to you.
Evey Hammond: Shut up! I *don't* want to hear your lies!
V: Your own father said that artists use lies to tell the truth. Yes, I created a lie. But because you believed it, you found something true about yourself.
Evey Hammond: No.
V: What was true in that cell is just as true now. What you felt in there has nothing to do with me.
Evey Hammond: I can't feel *anything* anymore!
V: Don't run from it, Evey. You've been running all your life.
Evey Hammond: [gasps] I can't... can't breathe. Asthma... asthma! When I was little...
[V reaches out his hand, Evey grabs it, they fall to the ground together]
V: Listen to me, Evey. This may be the most important moment of your life. Commit to it.
[Evey continues sobbing]
V: They took your parents from you. They took your brother from you.
[Evey groans]
V: They put you in a cell and took everything they could take except your life. And you believed that was all there was, didn't you? The only thing you had left was your life, but it wasn't, was it?
[Evey sobs, "Oh please...?]
V: You found something else. In that cell you found something that mattered more to you than life. It was when they threatened to kill you unless you gave them what they wanted... you told them you'd rather die. You faced your death, Evey. You were calm. You were still.
[Evey continues gasping]
V: Try to feel now what you felt then.
Evey Hammond: [breathes heavily] Oh God... I felt...
V: Yes?
Evey Hammond: I'm dizzy. I need air. Please, I need to be outside.

In my head :)

Through the shining crystal ...
With shimmers of sunlight dancing upon ...
Through thousands of tiny rainbows ...
And pearls of glorious dew drops on the backyard roses ...
I used to see ...
A face as bright and young and cute as adorable as it belonged to thee ...
Rosy and perky in the morning ...
Peace dawning upon in the noon ...
Shiny and playful in the evening ...
Dreamy and Misty in the night ...
Sharing all my things with you ...
Knowingly -- unknowingly :)
As innocent as in that age as were we .....
Playful you were ...
My most precious possession..
Your thousand tiny mistakes never bothered me ...
A tender age ...
All that innocence ..
And that spontaneous smile....
All that was for me and only me... :)
But Alas! The harshness life bequeaths on "we" ..
The age of innocence gone ...
Smile faded away ...
And the unbounded love gave way ..
To the clashes of ego...
Wisdom cracked away..
In the quest of a false sense of pride and glory ...
What is left behind ......Is just "You" and just "Me" ..
I know it is hopeless ...
But I still search ...
between the lines..............
For that innocence that smile that joy that peace ...
For all that is .. and that's what matters the most ...
To me :)