Make solitude your best companion :)

Here Am I .. Going through an altogether different and kind of weird phase of life!! Spent 19 years staying with 6 people at home! And a lot of frequent functions... Numerous gatherings ... And then the hostel life.. again 6 people per room :) By the end of B.E. it came down to 3 though but still...In M.Tech we were allotted single rooms but who stays alone in the room when there is constant partying in the floor ;)
I never imagined that a girl brought up in a traditional joint family with a bro hanging around, cousins , constant fights and literally no privacy (who cares for privacy when there are so many people around who love you :) ) ... would be staying alone one day..cut off from the mayhem of city life ... having carved off a niche for herself in a solitary corner seldom visited by so called near and dear ones ...Of course going home frequently is not an option as it happens to take almost 48 hours worth of journey!
But life would have no meaning to it if we fail to confront the best and the worst in ourselves! And of course what we fear the most! There were times at home when despite of the company of 6 dear ones I had sleepless nights due to a very false sense of belief in the evil! And numerous insecurities! Read this line somewhere, written off by a great person .. "It is in the company of your so-called loved ones that you feel most lonely!" ....
When You are alone, you have a evergreen loving companion who exists within you, who is ever ready to listen to your thousands of silliest utterances .. :) Comfort you..convince you... criticize you.. keep you off from the path trodden by cowards and weaklings ... It is always good to listen to your inner mate!
He / She is one of those very precious ones who will never lose faith in you..And encourage you despite of your biggest failures ...
Being a girl (I guess its "Woman" now though i hate to accept the fact :( ) It is of course difficult! Constant vigilance and carefulness become your obsessive compulsions every single day! This is the tenure during which you can decide if what I used to think and believe in till this age was actually authentic or If it was a mere way of thinking! An Illusion! You can decide whether staying single ever is an option for you or you actually crave to be a part of conventional society!
You become very much true to yourself and decide the course of life! Right from everything be it your professional life..........
To kill "empty" thoughts which just keep you hanging between this earth and heaven ( :D ) ... It is always a good idea to engage in something creative and meaningful , be it learning a new language (I do not mean Java, C ;) ) .. Music .. Food (Of Course :) ) .. or any other creative hobby you always craved to pursue from childhood :) )
It really gives me pleasure to take my time off and have an ice-cream (with lots of chocolate, caramel and malt ) @Corner house, Bangalore .. Pay visit to Lord Ganesh temple nearby ... Groom myself !!! :) :)
Yes I guess I am loving this solitude and at the same time bidding my time... Really clueless what the future has in store for me ... But we have to believe that "Good things do happen" ..And maybe they are happening right now Just that We fail to acknowledge them :) :)