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Dedicated to my Sweeeeetest Mother :)

I see in myself .....
A piece of your soul...
I am but a tiny reflection of you ...
:)
Yours was the prettiest face I saw when I could 'see' ..
And I will ever see :)
What is carried off is blurred and tainted ...
But it is but a little of me ...
What glimmers and glistens from beyond is something ...
I Have been seeing and adoring since ..
God put us together as 'we' :)
Just these 2 li'l eyes ..
Crave to see more and more of you..
Smiling from within..
And telling me always ..
Just keep me alive..
Don't let me fade away !
And this struggle tears me apart ...
I just pray ...
The reflection here goes off ...
Before the wick burns itself and dies!

Make solitude your best companion :)

Here Am I .. Going through an altogether different and kind of weird phase of life!! Spent 19 years staying with 6 people at home! And a lot of frequent functions... Numerous gatherings ... And then the hostel life.. again 6 people per room :) By the end of B.E. it came down to 3 though but still...In M.Tech we were allotted single rooms but who stays alone in the room when there is constant partying in the floor ;)
I never imagined that a girl brought up in a traditional joint family with a bro hanging around, cousins , constant fights and literally no privacy (who cares for privacy when there are so many people around who love you :) ) ... would be staying alone one day..cut off from the mayhem of city life ... having carved off a niche for herself in a solitary corner seldom visited by so called near and dear ones ...Of course going home frequently is not an option as it happens to take almost 48 hours worth of journey!
But life would have no meaning to it if we fail to confront the best and the worst in ourselves! And of course what we fear the most! There were times at home when despite of the company of 6 dear ones I had sleepless nights due to a very false sense of belief in the evil! And numerous insecurities! Read this line somewhere, written off by a great person .. "It is in the company of your so-called loved ones that you feel most lonely!" ....
When You are alone, you have a evergreen loving companion who exists within you, who is ever ready to listen to your thousands of silliest utterances .. :) Comfort you..convince you... criticize you.. keep you off from the path trodden by cowards and weaklings ... It is always good to listen to your inner mate!
He / She is one of those very precious ones who will never lose faith in you..And encourage you despite of your biggest failures ...
Being a girl (I guess its "Woman" now though i hate to accept the fact :( ) It is of course difficult! Constant vigilance and carefulness become your obsessive compulsions every single day! This is the tenure during which you can decide if what I used to think and believe in till this age was actually authentic or If it was a mere way of thinking! An Illusion! You can decide whether staying single ever is an option for you or you actually crave to be a part of conventional society!
You become very much true to yourself and decide the course of life! Right from everything be it your professional life..........
To kill "empty" thoughts which just keep you hanging between this earth and heaven ( :D ) ... It is always a good idea to engage in something creative and meaningful , be it learning a new language (I do not mean Java, C ;) ) .. Music .. Food (Of Course :) ) .. or any other creative hobby you always craved to pursue from childhood :) )
It really gives me pleasure to take my time off and have an ice-cream (with lots of chocolate, caramel and malt ) @Corner house, Bangalore .. Pay visit to Lord Ganesh temple nearby ... Groom myself !!! :) :)
Yes I guess I am loving this solitude and at the same time bidding my time... Really clueless what the future has in store for me ... But we have to believe that "Good things do happen" ..And maybe they are happening right now Just that We fail to acknowledge them :) :)

Do yourself a favor .......

Please Please Go Watch 'Tangled' :) :) :)

I fell in love with fairy tale endings again :) :)

A Beautiful Conversation (From the movie "V for Vendetta" )

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V: [V enters Evey's field of vision as she walks into the Shadow Gallery, directly from the prison] Hello, Evey.
Evey Hammond: You. It was you.
V: [quietly] Yeah.
Evey Hammond: [gestures behind her] That wasn't real... Is Gordon - ?
V: I'm sorry, but Mr. Deitrich's dead. I thought they'd arrest him, but when they found a Koran in his house, they had him executed.
Evey Hammond: [whispers] Oh God...
V: Fortunately, I got to you before they did.
Evey Hammond: You got to me? You did this to me? You cut my hair? You tortured me? You tortured me! Why?
V: You said you wanted to live without fear. I wish there'd been an easier way, but there wasn't.
[Evey whispers, "Oh my God...?]
V: I know you may never forgive me... but nor will you understand how hard it was for me to do what I did. Every day I saw in myself everything you see in me now. Every day I wanted to end it, but each time you refused to give in, I knew I couldn't.
Evey Hammond: You're *sick*! You're *evil*!
V: *You* could've ended it, Evey, you could've given in. But you didn't. Why?
Evey Hammond: Leave me alone! I *hate* you!
V: That's it! See, at first I thought it was hate, too. Hate was all I knew, it built my world, it imprisoned me, taught me how to eat, how to drink, how to breathe. I thought I'd die with all my hate in my veins. But then something happened. It happened to me... just as it happened to you.
Evey Hammond: Shut up! I *don't* want to hear your lies!
V: Your own father said that artists use lies to tell the truth. Yes, I created a lie. But because you believed it, you found something true about yourself.
Evey Hammond: No.
V: What was true in that cell is just as true now. What you felt in there has nothing to do with me.
Evey Hammond: I can't feel *anything* anymore!
V: Don't run from it, Evey. You've been running all your life.
Evey Hammond: [gasps] I can't... can't breathe. Asthma... asthma! When I was little...
[V reaches out his hand, Evey grabs it, they fall to the ground together]
V: Listen to me, Evey. This may be the most important moment of your life. Commit to it.
[Evey continues sobbing]
V: They took your parents from you. They took your brother from you.
[Evey groans]
V: They put you in a cell and took everything they could take except your life. And you believed that was all there was, didn't you? The only thing you had left was your life, but it wasn't, was it?
[Evey sobs, "Oh please...?]
V: You found something else. In that cell you found something that mattered more to you than life. It was when they threatened to kill you unless you gave them what they wanted... you told them you'd rather die. You faced your death, Evey. You were calm. You were still.
[Evey continues gasping]
V: Try to feel now what you felt then.
Evey Hammond: [breathes heavily] Oh God... I felt...
V: Yes?
Evey Hammond: I'm dizzy. I need air. Please, I need to be outside.

In my head :)

Through the shining crystal ...
With shimmers of sunlight dancing upon ...
Through thousands of tiny rainbows ...
And pearls of glorious dew drops on the backyard roses ...
I used to see ...
A face as bright and young and cute as adorable as it belonged to thee ...
Rosy and perky in the morning ...
Peace dawning upon in the noon ...
Shiny and playful in the evening ...
Dreamy and Misty in the night ...
Sharing all my things with you ...
Knowingly -- unknowingly :)
As innocent as in that age as were we .....
Playful you were ...
My most precious possession..
Your thousand tiny mistakes never bothered me ...
A tender age ...
All that innocence ..
And that spontaneous smile....
All that was for me and only me... :)
But Alas! The harshness life bequeaths on "we" ..
The age of innocence gone ...
Smile faded away ...
And the unbounded love gave way ..
To the clashes of ego...
Wisdom cracked away..
In the quest of a false sense of pride and glory ...
What is left behind ......Is just "You" and just "Me" ..
I know it is hopeless ...
But I still search ...
between the lines..............
For that innocence that smile that joy that peace ...
For all that is .. and that's what matters the most ...
To me :)